Inside CopperCab TOO…

It is apparent that my previous article fueled a resentment and slow burning anger under coppers micro nuts. Motivating him perhaps to be  more assertive in his projects, which is usually not too difficult for him considering they are mostly about himself or in some way self serving. Recently, commenting passive aggressively or even maybe coincidentally about the very topics I addressed. Hope he find some resolution and or closure in his personal development and intro-retrospection. It matters not, for the Ranga Rage that consumes him can never be extinguished, merely distracted and channeled towards hopeful more productive and positive goals.

Focusing his inner simp, copper has once again striven for excellence by attempting to paint a series of toilet art pieces to be displayed in the HIGH museum of Atlanta. A fitting name for the state of mind one must be in to digest coppers scribbles and scratches masquerading as depth and meaning. But what does it show about the inner man, not the fat grotesque shell he shaped into a creature of grossness. How does this recent development relate to his previous endeavors and how do we as a community come to support him in this goal, if we even should?

Despite coppers obvious idiosyncratic attachments to his own glorification and presumptive arrogance in every situation, it is imperative to me that we try to find a common ground. Unfortunately  this only seems possible through absolute supplication from anyone in his community towards the needs and wants of the red tyrant. This crazy notion that everyone will serve and support his whims is wild, but expected. The obvious insecurities and associations copper has formed with negative and stereotypical archetypes has perhaps deluded his judgement and creative process. Continually distracted by the clowns donations and comments, copper often finds it hard to concentrate and complete projects on stram. As for his personal time, it is rumored that he spends most of it sitting, eating and ranting.

Usually listing his accomplishments in a repetitive cycle of self congratulations, stroking his own ego like Janet attempts to do to his micro weiner, copper is innately wired to praise himself through memories to justify his current or future efforts, perhaps in an attempt to convince himself of the validity of his endeavor. Having spent 30 Years in analytical assessments of various fields of “ologies” etc. and the combative sciences,  I am most likely under qualified for a legit and thorough scrutiny and evaluation of his psyche, though links and causalities exist to draw parallels, between the relations with known case studies and subjective application inside even the Jungian theories,  this is obvious in itself a speculative process.

Therefore let me first clarify my position.

I in no way have any actual ill will or perceived evil intentions towards copper or his family. I merely wish to address his psychological, emotional, free will based, physical and even spiritual discernment with a sense of detail and compassion. Though accountability will definitely be the crux of his struggle and the healing that results from it, the growth he is apparently still seeking will only result in my humble opinion, when he lets go of his own ego. This may prove to be impossible at the current time, but One can hope.

I believe that copper at his core wants acceptance and friendship from many people around him, which all of us usually do. However, the consistent mocking, though mostly in jest, has slowly chipped away at the construct his personality has formed to appease the general public and those whom have a superficial and mundane understanding he has presented. The real nature of the Gingy Mingy is most likely the same concurrent manifestation as the rest of us. Under an enormous amount of pressure from others and himself, copper has undergone a great many transformations in his personality, the difficulty being in: correctly assessing his conceptual formative structure, which lies in the discernment between what is a scripted pre prepared role or a legitimate expression of the internal process.

The walls and mask he has built remain a barrier for protection and defense but also can serve as a isolation and hindrance towards real connection and communication. This is a common symptom of PTSD and various trauma based responses to external stimulation or perceived threats. Copper has been consistently attacked, used, manipulated and exposed by the very people whom he initial draws into his inner fold. This accumulation of mistrust and bad intentions over time has eroded the genuine perceived notions of reality and puts into question the very process of bonding in individuals whom often required a self built identity to cope with the pressure. This manifests as a tendency to judge oneself against the history of success of ones own past, possibly causing a schism of personality leading to an identity crisis. This can be actualized as the causative evaluation of one’s successes or failures, leading to a distortion of self-perception. This self perception can in turn be a reflection of the opinions of ones self that used to be viewed as counter productive or at times even contradicting to previous or current held beliefs. In other words, Coppers attachment to opinions and judgement of others may have inadvertently changed his subconscious into manifesting limitation on his expression, which is often noticed by the person as a lack of will, motivation or even the inability to manifest talents or previous skills without shaping the environment inside or outside to fit the conditions the psyche needs to express its talents. Referred to as Writers block etc. by the masses.

This natural and somewhat disturbing process, is akin to being thrown to the abyss, where one must cross the illusion of self facing dissolution of the will in a moment of clarity or enlightenment in the old traditions of the Neo platonic Hermetic ascension mechanics such as the Golden dawn or even Thelema. The aspirant is the accumulative knowledge and experience one has gained through time and life, yet this is just a façade created by the ego to promote the egos assertion of control over the impulsive or responsive multiphasic reflexive response. When the construct one has built begins to shatter, the psyche begins to reach and search for meaning sometimes even in the trivial, though many people often describe the synchronicity of fleeting understanding as a precursor to this liberation, it is in my experience naught but a phantom of attachment to the ideas of conscious will. In other words, copper has come to an impasse where he will face the reflection of the self while facing the endless depths of the unknown and future. Will he leap across this void to serve his own will? Will he embrace the mundane and fall back into the trap he has accepted as his prison? Will he strive forth into the unknown seeking the illuminism of wisdom and the egregores of hope and power or will recede into oblivion accepting the carnal as the only outlet and mirror of the darkest self? Only time will tell.

But it is my sincere wish that copper grow towards breaking down the barriers he has set for himself with me and others in his sphere of influence. Though we serve as an antagonistic source for reflection and clique, in essence I firmly believe most everyone in the discord and chat love copper to various degrees. Obviously Aubrey and The Toaster being the most sincere and closest to his passions.

Inside the carefully crafted mask copper has built from suffering and the bravery that exists within him as a result of the social adversary he has faced and overcome, I am confident he is in real life a gentle and beautiful soul. A soul full of inventive, passionate creative inspiration. As is the case with most people whom have been ahead of the ideological genres or pseudo intellectual criticisms of the era in which they exist, copper often finds himself outside the realms of depth and true bonding. It is my speculation that the deeper and meaningful relationships and even conversations copper has is of a mundane nature, often filled with the superficialities he embraces from necessity and not out of overwhelming want.  An amazingly unique and wonderful being worthy of praise and equallly disdain depending on the circumstances. To put it simply, he is a person much like the rest of us, yet differing in the sense that he has completely different view of himself than the average person who comes across his material, but being fully aware of that fact, where as most of us are blind or deluded.

My hope is that copper one day turns towards the light of growth and friendship even with his enemies and trolls so he may come to realize that all these things are put forth to cause introspection and retrospection, though usually flavored with cynicism and vitriol, the intention I believe is to help him develop his character, and the  characters he claims not to play.

 Perhaps his endless need for validation will one day shift in form to philanthropy or building others dreams instead of his own. To this day I look forward to, when all the shame, anger and passion can be formulated and concentrated into the alchemical work of evolving his consciousness to the point that he embodies the pinnacle of human intent and unity with the divine.

But even if that happened, he would probably just start a cult..

Until then we will still troll him..

SZC